wondering. always wondering. what shud i do when d time comes. what shud i do when choices have to be made. what shud i do if there are no choices at all. what shud i do when keep hunger for d previous one. what shud i do?? nothing. just wait and see. i've done it for years. always wait and see. till when?? always 10 steps behind. shud i say more than 10?? 10! don't want to humiliate myself. sengal~
when i kept thinking d right things dat i shud do in my future, it always came out with wonderful and beautiful thought. but! there is still but. but when i kept thinking it deeply, i realized and felt like i don't have d right to be like dat. life never been beautiful like we expect. we can say 'life is beautiful' but to have a beautiful life, lots of sacrifice shud be done.
i do envy people who are enjoy their life without any difficulty. they don't have to work hard, think hard, do hard. everything goes smoothly. how they get such a great life?? i do feel grateful with my own life but still....sumtimes, i feel unsatisfied. i did work hard but i never really got what i wanted. i did aim for d best but i only got d average. i did search for d answers but i only got million of questions. why?? my life is simple but yet is complicated. i don't really understand. with myself especially. and i don't feel good with my path that I've chosen.
even now, i'm still wondering.....what shud i do??
when i kept thinking d right things dat i shud do in my future, it always came out with wonderful and beautiful thought. but! there is still but. but when i kept thinking it deeply, i realized and felt like i don't have d right to be like dat. life never been beautiful like we expect. we can say 'life is beautiful' but to have a beautiful life, lots of sacrifice shud be done.
i do envy people who are enjoy their life without any difficulty. they don't have to work hard, think hard, do hard. everything goes smoothly. how they get such a great life?? i do feel grateful with my own life but still....sumtimes, i feel unsatisfied. i did work hard but i never really got what i wanted. i did aim for d best but i only got d average. i did search for d answers but i only got million of questions. why?? my life is simple but yet is complicated. i don't really understand. with myself especially. and i don't feel good with my path that I've chosen.
even now, i'm still wondering.....what shud i do??
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