'heartache'

it was true when sumone said, stop doing sumthing that will give u 'heartache' n 'dont fall bacause of it'. it will nvr help u to go on n forget the past if u keep let urself been trapped in a deep hole. try to climb it even it is very hard. dont simply give up. thats what im doing rite now. at least i guess so even nobody's nodding for what im saying. i heard so many stories. ignore them as i can do but still curious at d end. why?? can sumbody answer me?? still remember sumthing u shouldnt. it is very frustrated when u realized that u really hard 2 get rid of it. juz rid of it!! what my frens said. get rid of wut?? still questioning even d answer is on me. sumtimes when i did realize wut i had done, shame of myself n wiz everybody. feel like i had been a stupid person ever like 'lembu kene cucuk idung'. juz let myself being controlled by sumone who has no rite 2 do dat. wut d fish?? skang baru nak sedar! 'stupidest' for myself. d biggest mistakes i done cause of d **** damn thing were towards my God. Ya Allah, ampunkan aku atas segala dosa yang pernah kulakukan. my heart still aching. its juz like a needle has been pierced slowly into ur qalbu n u hv to bear wiz it for sum period of time. it juz cant be removed yet, even it was already removed, but the effect of it still there. juz rite at ur heart n i realized i felt n hard 4 me to stand back because of d mintakes. laugh n smile all d time, hope d strength will back n nvr do d same mistakes.