lets do it (^_^)

bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
rasa lebih tenang bila dapat memulakan segalanya dengan menyebut nama yang Maha Esa.

oh, i did plan to wake up really late today. so, i need to do something else first before going back to my sleep. hehhe! so, i'm updating my blog now. ermm..tak tahu sangat nak tulis ape sebenarnya. people cry kan? so do i. i did cry a lot yesterday. my heart was like been throbbed by a sharp object and it was so painful. the pain is still remain until today. betol lah orang cakap, cara paling berkesan meluahkan rasa hati yang sakit is by crying. before this i did it a lot. but towards something yang so stupid. maklumlah waktu tu zaman hingusan kan. berfikir pon ikot hati je. pakai otak pon sekali sekala je. hahha! so, yesterday i did cry because of my practical exam. i did not expect to pass everything just like that and i know something wrong somewhere when in viva room (*oral defend session after doing clinic aka assess the patient). but when you already did all out and you did work hard to face that thing and still the result came out slightly beyond your hope, it does break our little fragile heart. actually semalam buat pengakuan exclusive kat my friends, i did cry like a crazy girl sebab i'm tired. screaming, shouting and everything. siap diorang cakap aku gile dah ar and not to mention siap ade yang siap cakap yang aku ni macam ade bipolar behavior sebab dalam nanges tu boley gelak2 kan. mana tak macam oarang gila. eh? hahahaha! and i do feel tired. my friends said so. we're tired. our brain are really tired. for now, we are tired. thats how we feel.

tapi, first thing first la kan. sape lagi nak layan tangisan yang huru hara macam ni. my long lasting friends, him and of course ayah did the best part! elders know better because they learned through time. *maksudnye diorang kan dah lama hidup, makan garam pon lagi banyak daripada aku kan. so, ayah's words is the best medicine for my throbbing and breaking heart. he seals my heart back and put it just like and original one. betollah ayah, tak semua benda senang dalam dunia ni. tak semua benda kita nak, dapat macam yang kita rancang. Allah tentukan semua ni untuk kita. Allah beri ujian pada orang yang berhak. Dia ade caraNya tersendiri untuk buat kita sedar kita ni memang amat kerdil di sisiNya. tapi Dia juga selalu ingatkan kita, Dia tak pernah tinggal kita walaupon sesaat. cuma manusia terutamanya aku, yang mudah lupa. Allah sayang kita sangat sampai Dia taknak kita terus lupa dan alpa. thats how Dia kembalikan kita pada jalanNya dan redhaNya.

bila umur makin mencecah usia kedewasaan, aku nampak semua ni. cuma hati dan jiwa kena lebih kuat untuk hadapi semua. but still...i do hope kami semua dapat lulus sem ni dengan cemerlang. aku dapat lulus dengan cemerlang. hanya Allah yang tahu. dengan itu ya Allah, aku menadah tangan memohon padaMu berikanlah kami kecemerlangan itu. dan Engkau berkatilah kami agar kami berjaya untuk menjadi insan yang cemerlang di dunia dan akhirat. amin....

my heart now, is back to normal. i have Allah, my parents and friends. they do support me. so, i will do my best for this viva remedial. may be i need some times to prepare. *maklumlah hati ni tak sabar2 nak balik jumpa ayah umi kan. hehe! so, i need to tune back my channel to a correct one. books? notes? memang tak boleh simpan lagi la kan...tapi memang tak simpan lagi pon after exam practical ari tu sebab rasa macam something tak cukup. something was not right tuk simpan awal2. so, this is it! i have to face the viva again. go needa!!!! everything will be okay. think at the positive side, kegagalan menguatkan anda. thats why you have been chosen by Allah to face this. me and friends are strong. we can do all these. so, good luck to myself and my friends. knowing that i'm not alone to face this, it makes me relieve. i know, they do feel the same. so, lets fight friends!!!