Us~

p/s: not us but only her ;p

wani's wedding (^_^)

She's the first from our Audiology batch. May Allah bless you and may the happiness last longer till Jannah~ Memang berseri-seri pengantin kite.hehe!

rombongan cik kiah (^_^)

introducing my lovely boyfriend!!!

after a month period of our r/ship, now i yakin untuk expose kitorng punye keakraban. how lovely he is, selalu teman ke mana saje sy pergi. love you very much. another psycho action.hahaha!

ok, bye!

how bored i am

hasil tangkapan ikan bile kebosanan melanda while being at office kan. so, sile bersyukur. anda duk sesaje pon gaji masuk okaiy!!

ok, bye!

Audiologist

Bukan mudah nak belajar something yang kita tak begitu passionate about. Tapi semua tu boleh dibentuk, develop. For four years aku belajar semata2 nak memegang title Audiologist dan berkhidmat as Audiologist, alhamdulillah semuanya jadi kenyataan. Allah permudahkan jalan walaupon ade sikit2 likunya. Tak kesah lah kan, yang penting sekarang proudly i'm saying, i'm an Audiologist. Apa yang cuba dikongsi di sini, bila Allah dah membuka jalan untuk senang belajar dan senang mendapat kerja dengan gaji yang satisfied enough, tentulah ada ujian lain yang Dia akan kasi. Kalau semua senang dalam hidup ini, memang confirm la lalai memanjang. so, inilah cara Dia tunjukkan kasih sayang kepada hambaNya. Being an Audiologist for private company is tiring. Not just servicing tapi bila attach dengan retail ni macam2 nak kene fikir and achieve. How i wish 2 years can pass sooner. Mungkin hati and jiwa lagi tenang kalau attach dengan hospital je. Kemahiran dan pengetahuan yang ada hanya untuk membantu orang lain w/out any thought of gaining profits. Kerja sorang2, balik rumah sorang2. My life is not fun and i'm in the middle to get use to this life. Approaching 4 months working period, banyak dapat belajar especially patients/clients punye perangai. Ade yang senang nak handle, ade yang rase nak sepuk2 je muka dy, ade yang menyentuh perasaan dan ada yang menghiburkan. Semua tu pengalaman berharga sebenarnya. Cuma manusia macam aku ni kena fikir panjang baru boley accept benda2 gini as positive matters. Tiap kali boss tanya pasal sale, benda paling aku tertahan2 nak menjawab kat dy, i'm an Audiologist and tak pernah pon amik course marketing waktu belajar dulu. Alor Setar punya market tak sama macam KL. Population yang nak pakai and miliki alat bantu pendengaran pon kurang. Most of them kalau nak beli pon, mintak discount or through badan2 yang boleh kasi bantuan. Nak harapkan yang beli cash for every month, aku pon jadi amaze kalau tetiba ramai yg mampu beli macam tu. Instead of asking and ask for solution, turun lah padang sekali buat sale kat sini. Dalam kepala otak aku ni, just to help people and prescribe and suggest for those yang mampu. Siapa aku nak memaksa, it depends on them. Status kewangan masing2 berbeza. Hmm... 2 years, please pass sooner. I got 20 months to go. Either hati ini ditetapkan Allah dalam bidang macam ini, or just move and work at hospital. For now, i think working with hospital is better. Case lebih meluas dan lebih banyak yang dapat dipelajari. So, bear with it Needa and just do your work lillahitaala. moga Allah permudahkan segalanya. InsyaAllah..

My convocation day (^_^)

Dearest classmates. tak cukup korum..mane ntah hilang yg lain. =)

Saya dan kakak memang gemox!haha!

Model handbag??? ;p

lovely besties !

From dearest family! (^_^)

Tak banyak pon pics amik, dah nak petang so tak sempat nak spend masa dengan lovely friends tuk snap banyak2. Parents dah nak balik Gerik, I kan driver so kene la ikot. huu..ape2 pon that day was super lovely day. I AM OFFICIALLY GRADUATED FROM IIUM!!! YEAY!!!!!

terdetik rindu

Mak, adik dah kerja. adik dah besar panjang..dah 24 pon. tahun depan masuk 25. cepat kan? kalau lah Allah panjangkan umor mak, mesti adiklah manusia paling gembira kongsi semua ni dengan mak. Moga mak ditempatkan dalam golongan orang2 yang beriman di sisiNya. Al-fatihah..cuma terdetik rasa rindu sampai menitis air mata.

AIDILFITRI 2012

This is my raya this year. full of laughter. (^_^)

new me..Audiologist

assalamualaikum dah lame tak mencoret dekat blog yang tak seberapa ni. what is so important sampai aku on balik blog ni...hhmm...i plan on furthering my study. next year will be my target to pursue this. lots to do prior to this plan. cume mengharapkan may Allah ease me in every way. apa sahaja yang dirancang untuk hidup ini, moga dalam keberkatanNya. so, pray for me okay. Moga apa yang diimpi dan dirancang ini menajdi kenyataan. InsyaAllah...(^_^)Oh, currently i'm working. yes, of course as an Audiologist. but deep in my heart says i have to go for the above plan first. Jadi..i'm working on it and hope i'll get it. InsyaAllah lidah tidak kering untuk memohon doa serta mengucap syukur padaNya. Nothing much to tell about my job but still in process to adapt with this new environment especially working alone environment. hehe! Moga ditetapkan hati ini. InsyaAllah... Regards, Needa zainuddin

what Audiologist is all about

please focus at the part yang kertas menimbun atas meja tu. i'm at that stage right now when there is only a month to finish everything up. kenapa perlu pihak berwajib melambak semua benda pada hujung2 sem? oh, btw! the way the doctor holds that otoscope is totally wrong. credit to: tukangtelinga.blogspot for the interesting pic! (^_^) p/s: i'm Audiologist-to-be and i'm proud of it.

this is my super annoying post. bblllrrgghh~

being a final year student not an easy task. kalau dulu waktu first year tak payah nak fikir banyak2. baca buku and jawab exam memolek (tapi result tak molek2 pon). tapi sekarang lain. umur bertambah. banyak benda nak difikir. my future and everything. how i'm going to manage my life, everything etc. seems like nothing to be worried about but lots okay. LOTS!. the shortcoming events (event ke????) are our mock interview, final research presentation not to mention poster presentation (for this, i don't have any idea yet). so, sape kate aku tak fikir ape2. ari2 aku berfikir okay. cuma kadang2 je fikir important things and most likely benda2 celah gigi yang selalu aku nampak. yang besar2 semua tolak tepi dulu. dengan kata lain cik hasnida ni seorang yang penakut. duduk diam2, fikir lambat2. orang lain dah laju ke depan aku baru nak terngadah. haisy~ so, in my head right now, i've been thinking am i be able to graduate on the right time and will i get a good job to start with. malam2 selalu berangan nak mencapai sesuatu yang sangat besar which actually can make me proud of myself. hmm~~ teros fikir ye cik hasnida. you got your brain which is most likely not working so hard enough. so, be smarter please. dah final year and yet in the middle of final sem, sampai bila nak berada di takuk lama. nagging to myself right now. so, to those who are not interested to read my super annoying blog, just walk away and let me burst out loud everything i want in this blog. okay, dah lega. takat ni je dulu yang terkumpul dalam jiwa.

oh, btw i'm super annoying with people yang bile susah baru nak himpit2 kite. i despise this so much okay! lain kali kalo nak manja2 and himpit2 aku bila susah dan kesunyian, jangan nak kutuk aku lebey2 pada benda yang tak patot. tu la, hidup dalam dunia sendiri je.semua luahan ikot teknologi, ingat dy sorang pakar IT. meh luah depan2. kite face to face. ADE BERAN??? always assuming every people love you. haisy~
bye peeps!!

who says 24 is old enough for a present?

this is me, a chubby girl who is gaining weight everyday holding my very first 24th birthday present (^_^)


then, we moved to Pantai Gelora. rase angin pantai sambil makan big epal. ok, i do not know why this pic is upside down, i already rotated it. hmm..need head and neck flexibility i guess.=p


oh, this 'big epal'as my birthday cake. thanx my dear friends. and here, me with my everlasting friend ^^


me, her (Marlini Mesran) and my birthday present.hehe! *wondering apelah dalam kotak tu. =p


ehem! another friend who is called as Saar bought me this. yummy!!! pic dy takde sebab gambo dy makan hudoh sangat. =p


and my very last birthday present. from my everlasting roommate, Marlini Mesran. weehuu! my 3rd collction of Kami Garcia & Margaret Stohl. thanx dear (^_^). luv it sooo much!!


i got presents on. nampak tu. more than one! =p

congratulation to Anis Syafira & husband

to Anis Syafira, sorry i could not attend your wedding. takde rezeki. btw, may both of u having a long lasting marriage life. InsyaAllah...(^_^) I'm happy for u Anis.
this pic was courtesy from Shazelia Asyikin. hehe!

p/s: doakan sy pulak ye. ehem! ehem! =p

men out there...

mikhael

I MISS THIS LIL MUNCHIN' PUMPKIN!!!!!!!!!!!

update jugak

assalamualaikum...

tak jawab dosa!!! ceh..intro pon dah penoh dengan ugutan. dah berapa kali dah bukak blog ni dengan niat nak menghupdate segala ape yang ade. malangnye semua tak jadi. connection slow lah, cite basi lah, mood takde lah. oh dan macam macam lagi lah. okaiy! alasan2 yang diberi amat munasabah. *deng! so, sebagai student final year yang skarang ni tengah terhegeh2 nak menyiapkan research project, manghupdate blog adelah satu keje yang sia2. oh statemant, memang meloyakan tekak. layan twitter and facebook takpe pulak ye. dah semangat dah before this manghupload gambo my lil sweet munchin pumpkin kat blog ni sekali internet putus. lost. so semua hasil kerje2 ku juga lost. oh, whatever! nanti aku tunggu connection paling laju untuk menghupload segala aktiviti ku bersama hero hensem bakal model+engineer+pemain bola sepak tu.hahha! maksu yang lebey2 bercita2 tinggi. nak jadi PA dialah. letak jawatan as an audiologist. memang karutlah kalo macam tu. belajar sampai nanges air mata tak darah, tetibe nak terpesong keje lain pulak kan. how mengarut nye aku tapi kalo jadi part time PA pon ok jugak kan. *nak jugak tu.

bila aku mule merapu rasa banyak pulak nak dihupdate dalam blog ni.hewhewhew! tapi kalo idea takde, baik pergi tido je kan. konon nak hadap lit review, sekali lit review ke mane, aku ke mane? oh..pergi TC jap td menikmati "makanan laju". sebab tamak sangat nak makanan besar2 aku memerlukan sejam tuk habiskan semuanya. takpe...janji abes. takdelah membazir. pastu balik jadi hyper semacam. otak biol! satu bilik affected dengan kesengalan ku di malam hari. oh, azam tuk jog ari2 sem ni berjaya dilaksanakan. hasilnya, i can jog for 50 minutes w/out stop kalo kaki tak buat hal. unfortunately, bumi kuantan dua tiga hari ni asek hujan la pulak. habis lah stamina sy. mahu semput balik nanti. selang jog sehari pon dah buat aku affected tau. jog straight 2 weeks pon, still chubby jugak. takpe lah needa...janji badan sihat. *ayat sedapkan hati. =p

@_@ nampak? mate aku dah keror. maksudnye, dy nak rehat. i need sleep. i got appointment with two lecturers tomorrow. for the sake of my research. so sesape saje yang membaca curahan dan coretan di blog daku yang tak seberapa ni, sila doakan moga ade yang terbaik tuk diri ini. berjaya di dunia dan akhirat. amin...(^_^)

p/s: apex, leteh la..tolong calculatekan data sy. tolong yg tu je. aci?=p

spending hours @MPH. LOVE!!

before i start, just wanna wish thank you to ainil hawa for this lovely souvenirs. dapat jugak saya makan kek lapis! (^_^)


venue:OU
specific location: MPH
time: 3.45pm till 7.3opm
Ok, first thing first. this must be snapped. al maklum lah, makin meningkat umur, makin cepat lupe (^_^)


first book which did attract me first. ermmm....otak ligat mengire2.


cute kan this book??? i bought this one!!(^_^)


oh my!! these are the best! kejap pegang kejap lepas. hihi! last2, after hours been there, i decided to buy those. puas hati!!=p


just browsing through..suddenly bumped with this section! hmmm..*ntah ape2 la aku ni.


memang harapan la kalau nak aku baca and ngadap buku2 macam ni. ahakz!


did spend an hour for this book. cantik sangat pics yang di'shot'. so magnificent!!=)


nearly an hour for this book too. *please ignore the sandal.


then when i looked outside, jam okay! how i'm going to go home...???


ni pulak yang datang!!


when si cik kak tu sampai after 3 hours, i did bump with these books. nak beli but already buy some.


okaiy!!! time to eat. awe's treat.yeay!! (^_^). nandos...nyum!nyum! thanx ye cik kak =)


then....pulang dengan girangnye. perot kenyang, hati pon senang. hihi! (^_^)

entah

finally..i'm in kl. Meet my beloved father and see his smile. But still..he's not in the best state of health. Surgery? He does not want to do it anymore. Takot katenye. Setakat ni tak ade siape pon yang boleh pujuk. Me? Not yet try. Waiting for a suitable time. Konon lah kan. Aleh2 aku senyap je, ikot je ape dia kate. Hiks! Oh, finally, abes pon sesi re-sit for viva. A week waiting just for 15 mins session of oral defense. Huh! Rugi cuti seminggu. Jangan merungut..ada hikmah tau. Ermm..sekarang ni, jangan pernah putus doa dan harap. Moga semua nya lulus dengan jayanya. Oh, i miss my kampung so badly. Ayah said nak balik this saturday. Can't wait. Tapi risau la dengan condition dia. Moga terbuka hati ayah to undergo that surgery. It pains to see him in that condition. Haih ayah..kenape la nak takut2 pulak. Ok, memang login la nak takut but still it'll give benefit for his future kan. Macam mane nak pujuk ni...?? Ade sesape tau? Karang kalo cakap lebey2 mahulah diri sendiri yang kena tadah telinga balik. He is so good in nagging ok. Hiks!

Ok, plan of spending my time for tomorrow at MPH. Kat mane lagi...??? OU la. MPH kat situ memang the best. Lots to choose babe =) if you nak selak lebey2 pon boleh. Ape lagi, marilah menyerbu. Why i'm so full of spirit nk serang MPH? I got the 200 voucher ok. So, what else i'm gonna do with tose vouchers. Mari menggila di MPH. Yeay!!


P/s: moga Allah murahlan rezeki dan kurniakan kecemerlangan. Aminnn...
10 days left. Hmm...ntah ape aku bebel kat atas tu =p eh, updates thru E5 woo000..hiks! Bajet canggih..

lets do it (^_^)

bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
rasa lebih tenang bila dapat memulakan segalanya dengan menyebut nama yang Maha Esa.

oh, i did plan to wake up really late today. so, i need to do something else first before going back to my sleep. hehhe! so, i'm updating my blog now. ermm..tak tahu sangat nak tulis ape sebenarnya. people cry kan? so do i. i did cry a lot yesterday. my heart was like been throbbed by a sharp object and it was so painful. the pain is still remain until today. betol lah orang cakap, cara paling berkesan meluahkan rasa hati yang sakit is by crying. before this i did it a lot. but towards something yang so stupid. maklumlah waktu tu zaman hingusan kan. berfikir pon ikot hati je. pakai otak pon sekali sekala je. hahha! so, yesterday i did cry because of my practical exam. i did not expect to pass everything just like that and i know something wrong somewhere when in viva room (*oral defend session after doing clinic aka assess the patient). but when you already did all out and you did work hard to face that thing and still the result came out slightly beyond your hope, it does break our little fragile heart. actually semalam buat pengakuan exclusive kat my friends, i did cry like a crazy girl sebab i'm tired. screaming, shouting and everything. siap diorang cakap aku gile dah ar and not to mention siap ade yang siap cakap yang aku ni macam ade bipolar behavior sebab dalam nanges tu boley gelak2 kan. mana tak macam oarang gila. eh? hahahaha! and i do feel tired. my friends said so. we're tired. our brain are really tired. for now, we are tired. thats how we feel.

tapi, first thing first la kan. sape lagi nak layan tangisan yang huru hara macam ni. my long lasting friends, him and of course ayah did the best part! elders know better because they learned through time. *maksudnye diorang kan dah lama hidup, makan garam pon lagi banyak daripada aku kan. so, ayah's words is the best medicine for my throbbing and breaking heart. he seals my heart back and put it just like and original one. betollah ayah, tak semua benda senang dalam dunia ni. tak semua benda kita nak, dapat macam yang kita rancang. Allah tentukan semua ni untuk kita. Allah beri ujian pada orang yang berhak. Dia ade caraNya tersendiri untuk buat kita sedar kita ni memang amat kerdil di sisiNya. tapi Dia juga selalu ingatkan kita, Dia tak pernah tinggal kita walaupon sesaat. cuma manusia terutamanya aku, yang mudah lupa. Allah sayang kita sangat sampai Dia taknak kita terus lupa dan alpa. thats how Dia kembalikan kita pada jalanNya dan redhaNya.

bila umur makin mencecah usia kedewasaan, aku nampak semua ni. cuma hati dan jiwa kena lebih kuat untuk hadapi semua. but still...i do hope kami semua dapat lulus sem ni dengan cemerlang. aku dapat lulus dengan cemerlang. hanya Allah yang tahu. dengan itu ya Allah, aku menadah tangan memohon padaMu berikanlah kami kecemerlangan itu. dan Engkau berkatilah kami agar kami berjaya untuk menjadi insan yang cemerlang di dunia dan akhirat. amin....

my heart now, is back to normal. i have Allah, my parents and friends. they do support me. so, i will do my best for this viva remedial. may be i need some times to prepare. *maklumlah hati ni tak sabar2 nak balik jumpa ayah umi kan. hehe! so, i need to tune back my channel to a correct one. books? notes? memang tak boleh simpan lagi la kan...tapi memang tak simpan lagi pon after exam practical ari tu sebab rasa macam something tak cukup. something was not right tuk simpan awal2. so, this is it! i have to face the viva again. go needa!!!! everything will be okay. think at the positive side, kegagalan menguatkan anda. thats why you have been chosen by Allah to face this. me and friends are strong. we can do all these. so, good luck to myself and my friends. knowing that i'm not alone to face this, it makes me relieve. i know, they do feel the same. so, lets fight friends!!!

apa hati ini rasa

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
dengan nama Allah yang maha pemurah lagi maha mengasihani.

hujan belom berhenti. masih Dia menurunkan rahmatNya. moga hambaNya tidak lupa yang Dia maha berkuasa di atas segalanya. i'm staring outside the window and keep wondering when the rain is going to stop. its quiet in here. only the sounds of fan. my heart is not yet in easy but yet it already felt calm. only time can tell.

otak aku belom betol2 berehat sejak final examination had started. berkerja keras dari hari ke hari. and it did come the day when i felt hopeless. kept staring at the book and knew it was not going to be okay. my brain was restless. put the blame on me. aku sedar aku pelajar tegar yang sentiasa berlajar di saat terakhir. but as students we do it for reason. sometimes it works and sometimes no. but this time especially this sem it gave me pressure. the feeling of damn stress. the feeling of 'why i have to face all these'. the feeling of running away from everthing. thats how i felt. but smiles that never faded away from the face wouldn't show people anything. you can be the awesome cool person ever by hiding all of your feelings. but the reality is only you and Allah knows.

i just jot everything here just to sooth myself. i know my limitation and i know what i'm lack off. but because of this 'lack', it does give me the feeling of uneasiness. the feeling of you can't do well in everything you do. people do judge me wrong. that is what i feel. they say i do well but only me knows how well i am. how knowledgeable i am. i'm not a genius student which everything in the grab of my hand. i am someone who needs to work harder just to achieve a fair result and a genius who have done nothing always do better than me. sometimes, it does give me the feeling of very down to the earth and extremely upset with myself.

but today, i tried my best. i did my best. Allah knows and i know.

maka ya Allah dengan rasa hina dan rendah dirinya, berkatilah hambaMu ini dan kurniakanlah keputusan yang baik lagi cemerlang kepadaku dan rakan2. moga kami sentiasa dalam lindunganMu ya Allah.

p/s: nervous mode. uneasiness feeling. and i'm waiting till the day i can prove i deserve to be in this field. i'll work harder!!

we played!

we did go to TC AND finally ended up to teruntum mini zoo. no animals pic ok. just we who extremely ecstatic playing at the play ground.

tadaaaa!!!!































ok, thats all. chow~
p/s: as reward for our 2nd exam paper (^_^)