can't sleep

one little two little three little indian...bla bla bla. isy! its better to zikir la instead of singing those things. i can't sleep!!! help me please. now, staring and typing to post a blog saying to the world i can't sleep tonight. how psycho i am. take a deep breath...1 2 3....exhale! yes! looks like my mind totally got blank. could't continue with my study and assignments and here i am! telling everything in this blog. looks like it is obviously becoming my smart diary. ececece~ oh, just mind the above pic. if i do hear angels singing, i won't be here seating on my chair and posting a new post. currently i do realize i love to write everything but i have to really3 careful not to expose much of my personal life. (saying like i'm a hot star). ala....bile lagi nak masuk bakul angkat sendiri kan??? so, what i'm going to babble tonight? my roommates already safely asleep. tomorrow oh not tomorrow, just 7 hours later we will have clinic. i do hope i'll fall asleep now. i wanna sleep or it will definitely difficult for me to wake up tomorrow. aiya!! what am i going to do. with this current state of my brain and condition, continue study is no! no argument! its no! should i pray a lot for me to get sleep. yeah..i think so.

eh..who's next to get married after this. so jealous maaaa...ayah!!!! nak kahwin jugak! ok, my lunatic and ecstatic mood is coming without warning. gatai! blajo tak abes lagi nak kahwin. isy3~ who influenced me??? its really cold tonight. i studied with covering all my body with a comforter. not to forget, wearing socks and also sweater. my friends just did a statement saying i was like someone who lives in Eskimo. ok what???=p oh no...its already near to 1.30 am. i should sleep...i should sleep. eyes..please behave. btw, just viewed my friend's wedding pics. so cccaaaannnnttttiiikkkkk la! i have to lose 10kgs at least to look like that. arrgghh! stress (buat gaya macam Gary in running man).

yes! my eyes are getting heavy. oh yes! heavier. good night peeps. good night i <3 me. see you tomorrow.

p/s: wishing and pray tomorrow, there will not be lots of patient to be faced. *bile buat keje tak ikhlas, such thoughts will come. okeh! perbetulkan niat. assalamualaikum (^_^)

update sudah~

duit oh duit!!!! where are you. please come!!! i'm here. always waiting for you. oh, please always be available just for my sake. eh, hello!!! if just by saying those words, money can automatically appears in front of you, no need PTPTN la babe. no need PAMA sponsorship lah. just shout and ask for the money and it will fly straight away to your face. isy! *starting to be lunatic again. aiya~ "sigh"

just got back from TC. actually i intended to upload several photos at TC just now,but since the internet connection is not so good lets just forget about it. don't worry too much, just imagine my chubby but cute little face posing daringly but with polite at this screen.hehehe! what had been discussed there? lots of thing. too many things to recall. obviously...we are girls okaiy. (^_^) even we started with a simple and little thing, we had the ability to make it wide, wider, widest??? lets use a simple sentence and easier to understand, we love gosipping. thats all! khalas, no need more elaboration about that. we can start the conversation beginning with school life until U life. non stop. no need to feel weird, girls are girls.

okaiy! now, i'm updating my blog with my head thinking of my unfinished slides for my research progress presentation. i had a blasting holidays without even touched any assignment and enjoyed my days optimally.now, back to my usual days which everyday worrying about the assignments, clinics and so on but no any action was taken. how impressive! and how ecstatic my life is. *i hate typing and because i tend to type nad. why??? okaiy, just a commercial break. hehe! =p

btw, alone at room seriously giving me a calmness. no need to watch my roommates study or whatsoever. i can do whatever i want without affected by them. *i'm psycho. i know. the feeling may be affected but still... me is just like me. when i feel like wanna do i'll do. otherwise, the answer is no. or i'll deviate. maybe i finished less than 20%. despicable me. *dumb T_T

to my both friends, a thousand apologize from me. i seriously can't attend your wedding. i'm a jobless student with less and lesser money. so, please do understand my condition. and since my habit of doing and preparing all the chores, things, assignments so last minute i don't think i'll manage to attend. sorry again. but please do come for my wedding. *calon please~ hik3!=p i should stop here i think. i feel like my brain is deteriorating. exaggerated word is used. does it suitable??? nope...should be the function of my brain is deteriorating. ok, good needa! keep up your good job in English. keep writing even sometimes you used wrong words and grammar. *sudden self motivated.

ok, assalamualaikum.
p/s: please do reply yaw!! *muka penuh berharap =p

padan muka!

bila orang cakap, degil. taknak dengar. skang diri sendiri yg susah. jangan pernah tengok. jangan pernah peduli. bila dimarah angguk, pasrah tapi yg cakap di mulut tak pernah pun dibuat. cuba konon. tak perbah cuba. letak hati jauh2. hapus ingatan terus. jangan pernah fikir. jangan pernah ingat. jangan pernah buka. jangan pernah baca. apa2 pun jangan pernah. tapi tetap buat. tetap pernah. makan hati. segala yang dibuat semua tak kena. bila orang cakap cuba dengar. nak jadi tabah konon tapi hari2 kepala otak mesti terselit perkara yg sama. gelak. suka. gembira. hati tetap terluka. sampai bila mahu makan hati. orang cakap sudah, sudah la. jangan peduli lagi. benda dah lama. ingat pun tak guna. buat sakit hati ja. jadi, jangan pernah peduli lagi. jangan pernah amik tahu lagi. nanti diri sedih lagi. jangan cakap dah sedar tapi tetap buat benda yang sama. bila tengok pun dah sakit hati, ini kan pulak nak tahu semua benda. dah pernah cukup sakit hati. jadi, sudah la. sudah! parut pun tak hilang lagi. jangan tambah lagi. cukup! sudah! Jangan cari pasal dengan hati. nanti padan muka yang dapat. cukup2 lah. cukuplah padan muka yang pernah hinggap dulu. cukup!

pesanan tuk diri sendiri

macam-macam

join jd komiti taaruf, perkare yg menggembirekn. bertemu dgn bermacam2 org n bermacam2 ragam. mengenali yg lbey tue dan yg lbey mude. bermacam2 aktiviti dan bermacam2 pengalaman. semuenye manis. lbey manis bile mengenali ahli2 grup 'specialist' yg sporting dan amat cool. kamu semue mmg best! =)

7 julai 2009, pagi, ditugaskn tuk menjage taaruf kit. sejam lbey di situ, mndapat berite yg kurang menggembirekn dari charimah. jd, tindakan yg diambil, langsung tidak berpaling ke belakang. tidak mau kejadian pd hari persediaan tuk taaruf berulang lagi. petang, ditugaskan menjage checkpoint di mahalah. berborak bersame parents di situ tuk menghilangkan bosan. hari2 seterusnye, terus melakukan kerje2 specialist bersame ahli2 yg lain. kerje bersame tawe.

9 julai 2009, selesai suda. lege dan gembire. semue berjalan dengan lancar. dapat makan blueberry cheese cake dan big apple pade hari tertentu. terime kasih kepade yg bermurah hati. terime kasih kepade charimah jue sbb lahir pd hari itu. alasn yg kuat tuk kami dapat mkn kek. hehehe!=)

10 julai 2009, tido dgn gembire.bersame2 azy, zakiah n k.zati menyiapkan sedikit keje. petangnye dibawe k.zati ke pasar malam. dapat beli jegoung!=p dapat juge usha ikan yg diberi name nobimon di situ.malam, sekarang, waktu, jam, dan saat ini, sedang mengonlinekn diri bersame2 azy dan zakiah. sebntar td, membace semue blog sehingge terbace blog yg xptot dibace (sengaje bace sebenarnye). maka, xdpt ditafsir perasaan bler membace blog itu. "kalo jd pape ak xnk tanggung", ayat dr zakiah, "cari pasal, mengade2", dr azy. dan yg terbaru, menerime pukulan di belakang drpd charimah yg entah muncul dari mane. mmg xpatot dibace tp diri ni cume nk tau. yg pasti sekarang xtau ape yg dirasai. selagi lacrimal gland x memainkn peranannye, bermaksud ak makin tabah!=)

"ko jgn lembut ati" kate2 dari zakiah. "anak bongsu mmg cmni ek??" kate2 dr kwn2 yg mengenali. dan juge "oh...patut la...." ni yg paling slalu ak dgr bler mereke tau aku anak bongsu.
jd, sekarang tgh beruseha tuk tidak lagi menerime komen2 sebegitu daripade sesiape pun. harapan tinggi tol!=p ape2 pun, 9 hari yg dilalui amat menggembirekn walopun sedikit meletihkan =)